These days I am studying astrology. How I started it.. after a long quest that what is this uncertainty in life is all about and what is going to be the next.. remains mystery and when life unfolds itself.. the surprise doesn't shock you but the bitter truth about the reality is really shocking.
Anyhow till now .. candidly .. it seems a tough job to predict..
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Life and continous war
It seems the battle of this life endless and surpirizingly everybody is going through it and nobody realizes it. However like every battle the battle of life also has ups and downs.. it has times when you are about to lose.. when you are about to win and in end YOU WIN.
However these battles are almost same in outcomes however they are different in contents.. I am also fighting same battle like many.. today I am little disappointmented but I know like it has happened so many a times .. I will win it.
However these battles are almost same in outcomes however they are different in contents.. I am also fighting same battle like many.. today I am little disappointmented but I know like it has happened so many a times .. I will win it.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sad and Carefree
As life is full of contradiction.. I am too full of paradoxes. Today when day started I had heavy headache. In office I tool oraceft , kind of citrazine hydrochloride and paracetamol.
Anyhow I was little sad.. little carefree .. little pissed off.. little optimistic.
Anyhow I was little sad.. little carefree .. little pissed off.. little optimistic.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Abuse
I don't know from sometime I am getting more and more abusive and violent. I sometimes thinks am I being taken over by someone paranormal. What is it inside me which is out of my control and on the contrary starts controlling myself.
Sometimes even I woke up in the early morning my heads keep on spinning but why when I know everything will remain as it is even why I keep on thinking about just bad things. Why I cannot live in present as GITA says. Why cannot God let me know his presence when I keep on constantly asking for his help. Its like self war which is endless and don't know where it will lead me. Am I come pout of it alive or will I lose it my bad part. This is a war of Mahabharat and I am constantly seeking Gid's help , however it seems that mammoth invisible power doesn't want to help me. I don't know the reason , but me????
Anyhow my wish and hope is I should win this war. But who knows the end.. I don't know how many Birth I have already taken just to fight with my these habits and despite I want to get rid of them how many more Birth I have yet to take to WIN... But I know one thing for sure.. This war will centrally end and there will be a winner as well till then there is no stopping.. disappointments may happen, but no loser.
Sometimes even I woke up in the early morning my heads keep on spinning but why when I know everything will remain as it is even why I keep on thinking about just bad things. Why I cannot live in present as GITA says. Why cannot God let me know his presence when I keep on constantly asking for his help. Its like self war which is endless and don't know where it will lead me. Am I come pout of it alive or will I lose it my bad part. This is a war of Mahabharat and I am constantly seeking Gid's help , however it seems that mammoth invisible power doesn't want to help me. I don't know the reason , but me????
Anyhow my wish and hope is I should win this war. But who knows the end.. I don't know how many Birth I have already taken just to fight with my these habits and despite I want to get rid of them how many more Birth I have yet to take to WIN... But I know one thing for sure.. This war will centrally end and there will be a winner as well till then there is no stopping.. disappointments may happen, but no loser.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Sad Story of Me & DTDC
I have used the courier service to courier a packet with Delhi on Monday (2nd March 2009). The consignment no was Z86100879. However there is no details about the whereabouts on the websites. I tried their Delhi no 011-30582000 (nobody picks it up, the let the bell ring forever). other no 011-30580999 (picked by someone). First he transferred the call and I waited for 5 min in vain. Again I dialed somebody picked, transferred, but he was clueless. Told me that he requires the address so that they can go at the address and check. They gave some mobile no 9810612958, but this is also switched off.
The packet was the subscription amount for the magazine and the amount was to be reached before 4th March. However today is 6th March and nobody knows where is it. It has caused me mental agony and above all despite DTDC being such a MNC had a extremely bad customer service where
a) There telephone numbers doesn't work
b) They are themselves clueless about the work they do.
The packet was the subscription amount for the magazine and the amount was to be reached before 4th March. However today is 6th March and nobody knows where is it. It has caused me mental agony and above all despite DTDC being such a MNC had a extremely bad customer service where
a) There telephone numbers doesn't work
b) They are themselves clueless about the work they do.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Sometimes
There is a life in this world.. this world is living.. but it is not what we assume.. but it is kind of reality. Whenever we are hurt everything seems like hurt.. everything seems like depressed.. everything seems like sad...
That is how life keeps on living itself.
That is how life keeps on living itself.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
A Path to Nowhere
Seems like my life has come to a halt. It had happened several times before as well, when it appears that there is no way to go. I don't know why things keep on repeating themselves though in different shapes and size and not necessarily in some order. I have so many experiences which were so alike and yet so different in some way or other.
These days I am reading James Hadley Chase as well, this guys knows how to keep people engrossed but I find all the end so disappointing, they seem to not to go anywhere. Anyway this is just my perception about him, but this Guy is master of whatever he writes.
On job front I am OK with whatever I am doing, however I want better opportunity to come. I am getting little impatient and in fact truly speaking frustrated and little depressed and disappointed.
I don't know but it seems like being disappointed has become my second nature, I want to come out of this shell of disappointments. I don't want God to pour endless happiness over me but what I need from Him that he should provide courage to face all that is happening to me. Please god provide me courage to fight with all the disappointements I am facing and give me courage. I don't want happiness of the impermanent world but I need your hand on my head. Your blessings.
Amen.
These days I am reading James Hadley Chase as well, this guys knows how to keep people engrossed but I find all the end so disappointing, they seem to not to go anywhere. Anyway this is just my perception about him, but this Guy is master of whatever he writes.
On job front I am OK with whatever I am doing, however I want better opportunity to come. I am getting little impatient and in fact truly speaking frustrated and little depressed and disappointed.
I don't know but it seems like being disappointed has become my second nature, I want to come out of this shell of disappointments. I don't want God to pour endless happiness over me but what I need from Him that he should provide courage to face all that is happening to me. Please god provide me courage to fight with all the disappointements I am facing and give me courage. I don't want happiness of the impermanent world but I need your hand on my head. Your blessings.
Amen.
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